Carmen's Bathroom
Hello, welcome to my little homely space where I talk about gore and other revolting, disgusting and miserable things. I'm an adult, I don't actually enjoy this stuff in real life, just in theory, and this page is 18+! There will be gross things on here, like stalking and torture and murder and gore and all sorts of depraved things that you probably will not enjoy unless you are the specific kind of freak that I am.
You can find most of my writing on AO3 though I will likely port over all my original writings here eventually. I'm a big writer because I can't really draw gore decently at all, so alas.
This site is themed after Carmen from Project Moon, and the bathroom she killed herself in.
Eroguro Manifesto
I've been meaning to talk about my adoration for Eroguro for a while now, and I suppose now's the best time more than ever. Eroguro to me, is a rather unique and fun genre that (if it isn't obvious by now) is one of my favorite genres of art. I've done a lot of research on the history of eroguro and have read a few eroguro classics myself. Eroguro means erotic grotesque and is a japanese artistic genre that focuses on topics like blood, sex, violence and decadance. It's actually quite difficult to find papers and articles about eroguro that's not just calling it disgusting freak shit because to me, it is the most inherent anti-censorship an artform can get. I firmly believe that all art deserves to exist, even if I do not personally like nor endorse it because I am not the morality police- any and all art should be allowed to exist even if the morality is dubious. That is to say- I will find people a freak for making specific things but I don't have the power to say what is and isn't allowed in media. On a governmental level I am very anti-censorship. What I write is dubious and oftentimes disturbing and gross to many which is fine. You're allowed to find eroguro weird but saying art like it shouldn't exist is absurd and incredibly close-minded. Things like eroguro exist to express the more morbid parts of humanity that are shunned because it's "weird" and not societally acceptable.
Eroguro was made to fight against japanese censorship, and I suppose that's my favorite thing about eroguro. The anti-censorship message of the entire thing and the freedom to write things as disgusting as you'd like is rather freeing in a world where there's a huge issue with "hey, am i a bad person if i enjoy xyz in media?" you aren't! i know, crazy.
A few of my favorite research papers on eroguro are actually about how it was created to fight against the sexual repression of japanese culture. In general, sexual repression is something i try to fight against. Again, enjoying vivisection and other paraphilias in fiction does not equal who you are in person. in general, i greatly appreciate erotic literature as a genre and my current read is the story of eye which is an erotic novella that focuses on sexual repression in the french 1920s. if you like eroguro, i highly suggest you do research on erotic literature in general because i find it incredibly facsinating. also the difference between erotic literature and erotica is that erotic lit focuses on eros as a concept whereas erotica focuses more on sex. as someone who was very heavily sexually repressed for a very long time, being able to freely express things i am interested in has been freeing. Im able to talk about my sexual desires, enact on them and feel things that otherwise might be taboo despite everyone feeling it.
